Teaching or writing about spiritual matters is walking the razor’s edge. On one side – the side of the linear – is an aspect of our being that struggles to manifest Love in all actions and words. “Struggles” because in order to interact with the linear world, this persona must engage and work with the mind, the ego, whose survival-based need is power over everything in its awareness. Love and dominance are not compatible; this incompatibility creates the need for the struggle.
On the other side is a nonlinear place of self-evident perfection and pure Love. The razor’s edge is the straight and narrow path between the two sides, where spiritual truth finds expression through the speaking persona, that part of us that interacts with the physical world.
When I move from here – “here” may be from a teaching situation, or from writing this piece – I can go to one of two places that are relevant to my spiritual progress. One of them is a place of nonlinearity, where thinking is difficult and speaking almost impossible. This is the place of spiritual consciousness where Source/Creator/God is blindingly (to thought) manifest in everything including my own self, body, and awareness, where nothing is incomplete, where everything is perfection and wantingness simply does not exist.
The other place appears to my spiritual sight as a dark, narrow, twisted passage through which I must travel in order to continue this journey. In it there is extreme pain. This is pain of my own creation. I must face the times when I have been selfish or cruel, when I did or said something not based in love.
Facing this pain is an essential step, as I learn to forgive. Forgiveness of others is not difficult once I have forgiven myself. Forgiving myself is a necessary precursor of forgiving others, and it is the hard part, where the heavy lifting is done.
The way to approach this is not from the low consciousness of guilt, shame, or regret. That domain is where such actions originated in the first place. Instead, even while feeling the pain of these and other demons, I must reach to that higher consciousness, from where I can see that I too was innocent, doing what I knew to do, and that even knowing in some deep aspect of myself that there was another possible course of action, I was compelled to act by the ego’s need to prove itself powerful.
Reaching to that higher consciousness is primarily a matter of surrendering with intention, and applying meditative techniques to realizing that intention. It is a beautiful place to be, and connecting with it, learning from it, being guided by it, energizes much of my life as I learn to act in my everyday life from a place of love.
Read Somerset Maugham’s novel The Razor’s Edge for a wider exploration of this.